Well, I think we are at the make or break point in our relationship. I asked him yesterday to go to his Mom's for a while and let us take a break from the fighting. Really, who should have to live in daily turmoil with another human being? Who should have to break into tears at the thought of getting off work and going home to yelling and arguing all night long into the early morning hours? I'll tell you who, NOBODY!
I think that we need this time apart to get our feelings in check and hopefully so we can both work on ourselves. I need to learn to get past the fear that he's going to cheat on me every time that I turn around because that it what he has done in the past. You know he never did this cheating crap till we got married. I don't understand why either. Maybe he thinks he can do it and get away with it because that is what my ex-husband did or maybe he just thinks that I'm plain stupid. Who knows. I know that I'm not putting up with it anymore. I'm also not putting up with the 12 - 16 hours of straight game play anymore either. Total deal breaker there. I need him to pull his weight around the house such as cleaning, paying bills, spending time with the kids and with me.
I also need to look into the fact that I've lived in Indiana for 11 years now and I have no friends. No s single friend that I'm close to or can talk with except for AA people. I need a person that wants to do the things with me that he does not want to do. I'm kinda tired of hanging with my mom and his mom. They are both great people but I really think that I need someone more my own age with my same feelings.
I'll update again soon with whatever he has chosen to do with his life. Hopefully he chooses to clean it up and spend it with me.
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