Day 35 "whatever"

I told him recently that anytime he says "whatever", "shut up", "fuck off" or "leave me alone" that it basically translates into "I know your right but I won't admit it."

Well I'm done playing. He's still at his mom's and seems quite content there. She will ask him for money every week and pay her bills and leave him alone to piss away what he has left on books, video games or what Jesse begs for. He won't have to pay attention to her and can go on doing his thing. He acts like he doesn't care what he's leaving behind and never will.

I talked to him on the phone last night and it still turned into a argument but at least I was able to hang up the phone and be done with him and not talk to him anymore. It didn't get heated and there wasn't any yelling just mostly crying.

He talked about the people on the game like he wanted them more than me. He said that it wasn't about the game it was about the friends that he made on the game. Which is funny cause he told me that he wasn't talking to people on there or playing in a guild anymore and that he was playing by himself. Makes me feel lied to, again. I told him that I felt he was putting those people in front of me and his family.

I told him that I felt he was doing enough housework around the house to skate by and not really doing the big projects that he was ignoring that could lead to major work around the house. Things need sealed, straightened adjusted and fixed and he just doesn't care. I knew that he was playing again cause the housework slipping and his refusal to clean up and get out of his robe. Of course though I always know when he is lying or not telling the whole truth. Kinda sad.

And I told him that because all we do is fight so much that he wasn't listening to me anymore. If he would have heard me he would have known that I said this was a temporary separation and not permanent. But he said that it's permanent. So I guess whatever he wants. At least all my bills will go down and I don't have to feed him anymore. Life will be more manageable. But it still breaks my heart knowing that he chose them over me and his real life.