Picture taken 01/24/2009 I was leaving for a AA meeting.
Well, I think that I've finally found some serenity and peace. I moved "his" computer that I purchased for him and the kids out of the living room and upstairs to our bedroom. At least this way he is out of my view most of the day. Kinda brings some relief like he is the closet monster or
hidden secret that we no longer have to deal with on a daily basis. I've lightened his chore load so that I don't expect so much from him and I'm not disappointed when he does nothing but game all day. I did make him the offer to smoke upstairs that way he doesn't have to come downstairs and through the living room so much.
He's half heartedly attempted to spend some time with me this weekend but I just don't feel like it because I don't want to be dumped in the end for the game. I thought that when you got married you slept and shared the same bed. Kinda disappointing to have a rousing tousle in the bed for 30 minutes to have that person abandon your cuddle time with his game playing. sick sick sick.
I also wanted to share some stories that I found on the Internet about game players who've lost everything.
1. Couple overseas went to a Internet cafe leaving their 5 month old baby home alone asleep in her crib. When they returned the baby was laying face down and had suffocated to death.
2. On the Maury show there was a young woman who was blaming her husbands addiction on her weight gain after giving birth to her daughter. Did I mention the fact that he left her while in labor and went home to take a shower and ended up playing his game for 3 hours?
3. Baby grace was found last year in the gulf of Mexico. The authorities pleaded with the public to find out who she was. In the end they found that her mother met a man playing Warcrack and moved her child from Ohio to Texas to live with him and he beat the child to death while she watched. They then stored her body in a container in the shed for a few months and then dumped in her the gulf where she was found by fisherman. He did this to the child because she was aggravating him during game play.
I'm relived now that I had a chance to air some of this to other people in our lives. I'm seeing concern come from all directions now from different people that think this is a major problem that needs to be dealt with.
In turn though I'm taking my life back and living for myself again instead of waiting for him to do things. I'm taking action on things that need to be done. I fixed the headlight on one car. Put the other one on Ebay so I can get one that runs without having to wait for him to fix the one I love. I've done the shopping for the nep
hews birthday and did not wait for him to go. I'm no longer
He's half heartedly attempted to spend some time with me this weekend but I just don't feel like it because I don't want to be dumped in the end for the game. I thought that when you got married you slept and shared the same bed. Kinda disappointing to have a rousing tousle in the bed for 30 minutes to have that person abandon your cuddle time with his game playing. sick sick sick.
I also wanted to share some stories that I found on the Internet about game players who've lost everything.
1. Couple overseas went to a Internet cafe leaving their 5 month old baby home alone asleep in her crib. When they returned the baby was laying face down and had suffocated to death.
2. On the Maury show there was a young woman who was blaming her husbands addiction on her weight gain after giving birth to her daughter. Did I mention the fact that he left her while in labor and went home to take a shower and ended up playing his game for 3 hours?
3. Baby grace was found last year in the gulf of Mexico. The authorities pleaded with the public to find out who she was. In the end they found that her mother met a man playing Warcrack and moved her child from Ohio to Texas to live with him and he beat the child to death while she watched. They then stored her body in a container in the shed for a few months and then dumped in her the gulf where she was found by fisherman. He did this to the child because she was aggravating him during game play.
I'm relived now that I had a chance to air some of this to other people in our lives. I'm seeing concern come from all directions now from different people that think this is a major problem that needs to be dealt with.
In turn though I'm taking my life back and living for myself again instead of waiting for him to do things. I'm taking action on things that need to be done. I fixed the headlight on one car. Put the other one on Ebay so I can get one that runs without having to wait for him to fix the one I love. I've done the shopping for the nep
hews birthday and did not wait for him to go. I'm no longer providing him with toiletries or anything to take care of himself. If he wants them he's out of work and has 24 hours in the day to go get them for himself. I've taken over the cooking, cleaning, laundry and child care.
I've been going to A.A, meetings to make sure that I don't relapse back into drinking myself to death to find pleasure. I also joined OLGA witch is Online Gamer Anon to help feel so not alone. Any suggestions of what you've done to take back your life?
I've been going to A.A, meetings to make sure that I don't relapse back into drinking myself to death to find pleasure. I also joined OLGA witch is Online Gamer Anon to help feel so not alone. Any suggestions of what you've done to take back your life?
Picture taken Summer 2007 "this is what he looked like when he used to take me places and do things with me and we had no video console and he had no access to the computer"
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