Day 42 "WTF!"

Ok, so after I posted yesterdays blog I left for lunch. He was parked outside the front door where I work. I thought he was here to ask me to lunch but he wanted to ask me about the dog and my friend Robyn visiting me more at the house now that he is not there. So after we talked about those two things he acted very ho-hum that he was leaving and paying the electric bill. I asked him if he was here to ask me to lunch cause if not I was leaving and going by myself. He said no, he wanted to go to lunch, too.

So we went to lunch and talked about some mundane things while sitting in the parking lot of a park. He started to take me back to work but I told him that I would go with him to the electric office. We got there and when we got a copy of the bill she told us the 2 month amount and asked how much we were going to pay. Without missing a beat he said the whole thing. I was shocked! So we get up there to pay it and then find out that his nifty unemployment card from the state can't be accepted there. I fork out the money on my Debit card and then told him that I would have to go to the bank to get my check in so that I didn't overdraw my account. He started in that direction but made a turn and went to the bank and got the money off his card and gave it to me to put in the bank. We then talked about hanging out together last night while the kids were at church.

I told him that I would be ready to go by 6:10. Well the neighbor took my son so I didn't have to. I waited till 6:15 and started making my grocery shopping list and decided to move on without him. Well he got there at 6:20 and I went with him to drop his daughter off at the church. I tell you the ride in the car was awful. You could have cut the tension with a knife in the car. His daughter wasn't talking or anything. But she had said some horrible things at school about me that had gotten back to me via my son and his friend.

After we dropped her off I needed to go to Target and get some stuff. I asked him if he wanted to wait in the car since he informed me of how much he hates shopping. Well wouldn't you know it, I pinched a muscle in my back picking up the dog food. He said that had he known I was getting dog food he would have went in with me. But I'm glad he didn't cause it gave me a chance to eye a grey and purple dress that I'm going back to buy tonight.

Afterwards we went to the house to cuddle which for hi always means having sex. I stood my ground though and did not give him. Then he started talking like he's ready to move back in but I'm not taking it too much to heart since he didn't set a date or say when. But we were confirming resolutions to our problems and he said he was lonely at his Mom's house. I'm lonely too, but I'm not going to cry over it since the house is much more peaceful. He still wants that damn game and I told him that I'm not ready to talk about it, yet. I've compromised on the other games. But I think like my drinking that did so much damage that he should give up the game that caused so much damage. So we will see.

I talked to Robyn for almost a hour and half after he left. We are going to invite the guys out to a late night dessert Saterday night so that they can meet and our spouses can meet us. He's coming to pick me up for lunch again tooday so I'm going to ask him then.

So cross your fingers for me and we'll see what happens.