Day 302 : Why does he stay?

Why does this man stay in my life? Why does he not admit that he hates life with me and move on to someone else that will make it easier on him? Does he get off on watching me be miserable? Do he even think about the fact that Mom will let him come home and do everything for him and it won't cost him a penny and he can do anything there that he wants? Does he not want to grow up? Does he not want to be a man?

I'm not Mrs. Nice about all of this.... I make sure to make it a point that I will never forgive and never believe him. I make sure to bring it up as much as humanlypossible so that maybe he will just take a hint. I just can't go through all of this all over again.... did this with my ex-husband and now this one...... just seams hopeless.

Day 295 : Message from Internet Affair

Someone just shoot me.

He admitted all his lies. He was talking to women in the Internet for sexual gratification that whole time that we have been married but doesn't consider it doing anything since he didn't touch them. He always claims "I haven't done anything."

The pictures were for someone else. He has talked to dozens and dozens of women at least once a week or more. He's looked at them on their cameras. He's replied to ads on Craigslist for sex with women!!!

But good news is he hasn't played his game in two weeks.

::::jeez:::